King Lizzy

Heading out the back door, she’s falling behind
I guess that you could say time just ain’t on her side
She’s always moving forward, but a little too late now
Her heart starts beating at an alarming pace now
“Where the hell am I supposed to go?”
She can’t decide and just doesn’t know
So let’s create a world that nobody can see
It’s made for people like you and me

A world created for
The girl who needs to escape
Leave reality
Before it’s too late
She won’t be home tonight
So don’t expect to see her
‘Cause she’s the king in here
And she will be king forever more

Everyday’s a holiday, and she’s sleeping in
And now she doesn’t worry about where to begin
Basking in the glow of the fully lit moon
Each night is a perfect shade of dark blue
No longer hiding out from the dark
Opening herself and letting us in her heart
We created a world that nobody can see
It’s made for people like you and me

Bleeding Heart

Jimmy was a boy who wanted nothing more in this world
Than to have someone that he could call his own
But he never seemed to have any luck
And so he thought that he would end up all alone

Well, Cali was the girl that you could only find in your dreams
But she was special, and sadly, she didn’t see
That Jimmy wanted her all to himself
So he put his bleeding heart back on the shelf

And Jimmy’s cinematic memory will
Never be the same
Because

Cali’s leaving for New York
So Jimmy’s packing his things
And he’s moving out to Vegas
They wanna make a new start
But they never really got a chance
To fill in all the pages
Because the letter in Jimmy’s mail
Cut the time they had almost in two
So now they’re a thousand miles apart
“So, doctor, can you fix what’s mine?
This bleeding heart”

So Jimmy’s bleeding on the inside and it
Isn’t showing any signs of letting up
And Cali’s falling asleep now
In the city where she can’t feel Jimmy’s love, oh no

Every day that passes by without her
Jimmy starts sinking deeper and deeper
He’s losing himself inside his mind
Because he knows he belongs inside her heart now

And Jimmy’s holding on to something
But it’s something he can’t explain
Because

Cali left for New York
So Jimmy packed his things
And he moved out to Vegas
They wanna make a new start
But they never really got a chance
To fill in all the pages, so now
Jimmy’s heart is colliding
With Cali’s heart
But now they’re fading
Maybe this story’s ending
Won’t be such a perfect one
With the bleeding heart

So now Jimmy’s on the brink
And he doesn’t know who to turn to now
And so Jimmy starts to think
“We’ll be together somehow”

Jimmy’s off to New York
He’s packing up his things
And is moving to the city
He’ll finally get his new start
And they’ll finally get chance
To fill in all the pages, and the
Lovers kept holding on because they
Knew just what was worth fighting for
Just keeping strong and carrying on
Even in spite of it all, it was
A bleeding heart

Cali left for New York
So Jimmy packed his things
And he moved out to Vegas
They wanna make a new start
But they never really got a chance
To fill in all the pages, and so
Jimmy finally got the courage
To chase his dreams and the one that got away
And now they finally have each other
And they owe all their thanks to
My bleeding heart

Falling

It started out just like anything else
Had to put my heart back on a shelf
But then you said, "hey," and took my breath away
Caught off guard, and taken by surprise
Looking for the truth hiding in your lies
But now I've got something to say:

Well you said your heart wasn't in it to begin with
And you thought that you were losing self control
And with everything you break apart
A thousand miles of broken hearts
Well I don't want to be anywhere near you
When you fall

Played me like a violin and cut my strings
Nothing you can say will change anything
'Cause the damage is done, and now I'm on the run
Broken into two, and running from the past
I should've known, nothing ever lasts
You were too good to be true, but what can I do?

Well you said your heart wasn't in it to begin with
And you thought that you were losing self control
And with everything you break apart
A thousand miles of broken hearts
Well I don't want to be anywhere near you
When you fall

(She won't believe me
And she can't even hear me
Screaming out her name
Because I'm the one to blame
She won't believe me
And she can't even see me
Holding on to her
And I'll never let go)

the end of an era

So my relationship is over

I seriously feel like such a fucking idiot sometimes
And tonight is one of those times
I ended something that needed to be ended
So why do I still feel like this?

You might say it's because I lost something that was familiar to me
True
But I don't think that's why I feel this way

I really don't know why exactly everything fell apart, but it did.

She doesn't deserve to be hurt.
I can only hope that she is never hurt the way I hurt her tonight.

I'm sorry.

You deserve better than what I can give you.

I *was* having a good day...

Just get out on paper. That's all I really need to do, right? Just take all the thoughts that are frustrating and angering me and put them on paper. Well... a blog at this point. I didn't feel like finding paper to write on and get a pen or pencil. I've done enough writing today on paper. Had a mid-term; I had to write a lot. My hand was hurting halfway through. Anyway....

OK... so... why am I upset now?

Full circle. That's what happened. The same discussion I had with someone about 7 months ago is happening again. A very frustrating conversation that myself and this other person will NOT back down on. Neither of us know when to quit, and our stubbornness is too high to compromise. And now, that person isn't talking to me. I'm waiting on a text message to see where it goes... apparently, it's nowhere. And fast.

Why is it that I get so frustrated? Because I'm tired of this person being controlled by their father. This person is 22 years old, and yet their father still tells them what to do: when to go to bed, how late they can be out, making sure their eating right, making sure they're doing their homework. It's stupid. I'm sorry but it is.

I was hoping to hang out with this person tonight, but that's just not going to happen, because this person doesn't know how to stand up to their father. It's ridiculous.

Am I overreacting? Probably. But it still just gets me.
Should I feel like an asshole? Probably. I'm being one, I'm sure.
Whatever.

I've been trying the "I don't care" thing, but it's getting difficult.

So... now what do I do?

Gift/Curse

So tonight I realized something else about myself
I have a gift/curse, as we all do.
Mine?
Well, wouldn't you like to know?
Sure.
I could just straight up tell you
But I'm not sure if that's the vest idea.
Let's see if I can at least give you an idea:

I have passion burning inside of me
There are times when it just is bursting from the seams
And other times when it's just a dull flame
Either way, it's there; waiting.
Yearning
Churning
And always burning

There are times when something comes along,
And I simply cannot contain myself,
Then the passion takes over
All logical reason and thought are removed
And the emotions surging through my blood
Are simply overwhelming

Even tiny things or incidents can cause that initial spark
Then once the fuse is lit
(As some will tell)
Is very difficult to extinguish
I really wish there was a way to do this right

Here's the answer if you haven't guess yet:
I care too much
I realize that sounds a bit off (*cough* emo *cough*)
But it's the truth.

When something comes along
And I honestly really care about it,
Then I care too much about it
Until I could not care at all
Do or die.

Whether it be a person, or their actions
Or the way they live
I'll care about it.

I see potential in people,
And the sad part is,
I see potential in people.
Don't get it?
That's OK.
Most people won't.

Potential is amazing and terrible at the same time.
If someone has potential, then that means they
Have not tapped into living life all the way
Or whatever it is that they're doing
When you've reached your potential
Then you're ready to move on
Next project
Or whatever is you're working on

There is so much more than just "getting by."
I'm better than that.


There are times when I wish I didn't care so much about
"whatever"
It kills me sometimes, and I wish it would go away


I've been learning to cope with my emotions

And myself for that matter...
But it gets difficult
Maybe one day,
I'll truly understand myself
And understand why I'm here


Maybe one day...
I'll finally understand what
Truth

really is...

Shepherd's Lies

They say that everyone is broken and destroyed

And so are they gunning for me? Or am I just paranoid?

This shattered glass is falling; raining from the sky

Compared to what I’ve seen, they’re all a bunch of lies

So bring it all back, bring it all back

We’re on the brink of destruction

‘Cause as the time ticks by

And what the masses don’t see

Is that everything around

Is how it all should be

But I don’t see a reason

For the mass hysteria

As the world falls apart

Bring on the paranoia

So let’s burn it all down

Destroy the fabrication

Of Mankind’s destiny

And the desolation

I’m gonna take it back

And start a revolution

Runaway from the order

And the media pollution

The shepherd’s lies have driven deep inside my head

Like a broken record they play over and over again

Need to find an outlet before my mind destroys itself

Then forever I will be trapped inside this hell

So take it all back, take it all back

We’re on the brink of consumption

Then Never Ending Green Day Battle: Old Green Day vs. New Green Day

OK kids. Let's have a little fun, shall we?

Lately... OK wait... maybe over the last 5 years or so, I have been reading a whole lot of crap about people saying how much they hate "new" Green Day, and how much they love "old" Green Day.

Here's what I have to say about that: Grow up. Bands evolve over time. Seriously. Green Day is one of those bands. Sure, their sound has changed over time, and that is to be expected. If every single Green Day album since '94's Dookie.

I'll be fair. I found Dookie to be quite the album. All 14 tracks (15 if you can't the hidden bonus track) are pretty cool and astoundingly catchy.
That record produced 4 singles, and ended up going 10x Platinum. That's quite an amount from one album. Mind you, it took a few years before it went 10x Platinum.

Point being, (so far) it's Green Day's top selling album.
As far as the music goes, it's pretty punk, you might say. It's straightforward and to the point. Averaging at three power chords per song, Dookie doesn't really show off Billie Joe's guitar skills.

If you really want to hear how good he is, I suggest 1,039/Smoothed Out Slappy Hours.
And if you haven't even heard of that album, get out.
No, seriously...leave

The trend in Green Day's earlier songs were typically about masturbation and smoking pot all day. But when you're in your late teens/early 20s, what else is there to do, right? So it's appropriate for them to write about that kind of stuff.

Here's my argument: Why do people want Green Day to stay that way? Just keep writing songs about masturbating and smoking? It would get old pretty fast, so that trend ended after that album.

A year later, Green Day brought out Insomniac.
Now I have to say, I think this is Green Day's more "punk" album.
Billie Joe's lyrics are pretty incomprehensible when he sings them, and the songs are all 3 minutes or less (more less than anything). Every song uses only about 3 power chords. You can't really get more punk than that. Cool. Love it. Next.

Nimrod.
Amazing album. It's when Green Day said, "let's try some new stuff with our sound."
So they did.
Still the same 3 chord formula, but the lyrics changed. They started to sound a little more... mature. Good Riddance came off of this album. It became one of the most cliche songs for graduations all over the country. Here's a fun fact: That song was written back while Dookie was being recorded. I know, right? Weird.

Warning.
So... hmmm. I have to say, I actually really like this album. Most people don't like it because it didn't "sound like Green Day."
So what? Green Day started to experiment a little more with their music. Is that a bad thing? Name a band and tell me they've never tried a newer sound or experiment with other instruments. You can't. Plain and simple.

Green Day took a 4 year hiatus after Warning didn't even go Platinum.
Then they started to get back into it. They would all meet in Billie Joe's basement for band practice, and it sucked. It came to the point where Billie Joe asked bassist Mike Dirnt, "do you even wanna do this anymore?"
They almost quit.

They finally decided to just throw caution to the wind and write a whole new album and just go for it. They didn't care if people really liked it; they just wanted to write new music and put it out there. So they did.
American Idiot was born.

Green Day's 2005 album American Idiot was their first album to debut @ number 1 on Billboard charts.
It was pieced together in 13 songs, 2 of which were composed of 5 mini-songs.
It was a punkrock opera.
People started saying, "I hate new Green Day; old Green Day is better."
Here's my other argument: If you don't like "new" Green Day, then don't bother listening to it. And just because they stopped writing about masturbation and getting high, doesn't mean they don't know how to rock.
With the release of American Idiot, Green Day embarked on a world tour, and actually played at one of the largest venue's they have ever played: the Milton Keyens bowl in the UK.
65,000 a night for 2 nights.
They played for 130,000 of their fans.
And mind you, this was the American Idiot tour.
Another fun fact: The producer for American Idiot is the same one that produced Dookie, Insomniac, and Nimrod. So what does that say? Even their producer thought that they should grow up.

So what's wrong now?
21st Century Breakdown is Green Day's latest release, and it's getting even higher marks than American Idiot. And American Idiot got a lot of praise for how bold it was.
People who have actually listened to 21st Century Breakdown are saying it's pretty solid.

In this blogger's humble opinion: 21st Century Breakdown is better than American Idiot. There. I said it. It takes the best parts of American Idiot, and just keeps adding to it.
So what if they don't necessarily "sound" punk anymore. Fact is, they are rock and roll.
And the fact that they had the guts to grow up and put themselves out there is more than anyone on a forum can say about what they've done with their life.

If you don't like "new" Green Day, don't listen to it. And you sure as hell better not be on a forum saying it sucks without any sort of justification.
If you like "new" Green Day, and can appreciate what they have created as artists, then you get it.

Green Day is punk.

Faith and Human Nature

Another night of thinking about faith and religion.

I was thinking about why people start to follow a certain creed or religion.

1) They really like the ideals and morals of it
2) They've had a "religious experience"
3) They've talked to "God"
4) They need comfort
5) They need guidance
6) They need to have an answer

That last one is the one that really seems to stick with me the most
It seems to me that human nature is that we need to have an answer for everything.
Seriously though, we do.
It's in our blood to have an answer for every little problem that is going on with us
Doctors don't have an obligation to treat a patient, but they do because the patient is asking for their help
"House" is a good example of this.
The whole show is about House and his obsession with figuring out what is wrong with these patients.
He really could care less about them; he just wants to figure out why they're sick and what is causing it.

People need to have an answer.
Why are we here?
The faith fanatics will say, "Because God has a purpose for me"
What purpose is that?
No really. What is it?
What happens when you die?
"I will go to Heaven, for I have been good my whole life."
Really? Do you know that for a fact?
Do you know anyone who has been dead for 10 years, and has come back to life and said, "yeah, there is a Heaven, and it's fantastic?"
Really? Do you?
If you do, I would love to meet them.

It's comforting to know that you're going to Heaven when you die.
But guess what.
You don't know.
You can believe, believe, believe, believe, believe, and believe till your heart is content.
But the sad truth is, you'll actually never know.
And for all of you out there who think you know, you "just know" what happens when you die, I can assure you, you don't know.
How can I be so certain?
Because I don't know. And you do not posses mental powers that I do not.

It's really hard to believe that a man existed about 2,000 years ago when there is no actual scientific proof behind it.

Why are there no bones from Jesus?
"Because he rose to Heaven 3 days after he died."
Cop-Out.

It's so easy to have an answer for everything when you have faith.
I don't have a faith in anything really
I'm not an Atheist; even that is too certain for me.
I can't prove there is a god, but I can't disprove it either.
So I'm stuck in the middle
And if there was a god so almighty and powerful, then why hasn't he given us the cure for cancer?

We can cure almost anything else in the medical world, but cancer (and AIDS for that matter) is something that we just cannot get rid of.

I also noticed that people get really pissed off when we don't have an answer for something
"Why weren't you here when you said you'd be here?"
"I don't know"

Those three little words really get to us.
Maybe they don't really know.
Maybe there was a brain lapse, and the cognitive functions just shut off, causing someone to forget that they were supposed to do something.
We're human
We forget
We screw up
We live
We love
We laugh
We cry
We hurt
We get hurt
We die

It all happens
And really, some things just cannot be explained


If you ask me, I think it's more than OK to not have an answer sometimes

How will we ever know if there is some omnipotent force out there controlling our destinies and our relationships?
My honest answer

I don't know

Thoughts from an Insomniac

I'm not exactly sure why I'm feeling the way I feel right now.
It's sort of an empty feeling.
I've been up for too long tonight, even though it's still fairly early in the night for me.
I'm used to staying up till 2 or 3, but right now it's a bit after midnight, and I feel down.

Why is it that little things tend to just eat us up?
Those little, insignificant thoughts that pop up in our minds just tear at our psyche.
Why are they there?
Is it so that we know we're human?
Is it so we know we're alive?

This day was just such a weird one for me because my other half wasn't in it much today.
I realize that I do take things too seriously sometimes and I get frustrated easily.

I really hate the fact that I have a short fuse.
It gets the better of me sometimes, and it really just amplifies bad situations and makes them even worse.
I get annoyed over little things, and then I just snap.

I guess this blog is an apology.
An apology to anyone I've ever snapped at for no reason.
If I've ever snapped at you out of nowhere, I'm sorry.

I have a short fuse, and I don't know exactly how to fix it.
I've been working on it.

I don't mean to act like I do.

21st Century Breakdown

So

Green Day's "21st Century Breakdown" is available on Friday, May 15th, 2009.
How do I know? Because it's everywhere! If you didn't that, then you are living under a rock.

I have been listening to the album already though, online. MTV.com, vh1.com, Rhapsody... you name it, I've heard it there.

I must say, I am very impressed with it. I'm gonna have a more detailed review of it in the near future, but until then, I will say this: just buy it. Seriously. Just do it.

religion

I know that this is a touchy subject for a lot of people, but I'm gonna write about it anyway.

A friend says that I limit human beings; that because I say, "maybe we're not supposed to understand everything and why things happen the way they do," I limit the possibilities of human beings.

Here's the thing. I'm not Atheist. But I'm not a believer. This arrogant certitude that is the hallmark of religion is the thing that I just can't stand. My brain cannot fathom the fact that some omnipotent being created EVERYTHING and then caused all these miracles to happen about 2,000 years ago, and now we haven't seen one at all.

In the book of Genesis, people lived to be 900 years old. And now that doesn't happen? Why not? I asked a friend. They said it's because of infection, and STDs, and smog and all kinds of other stuff.

To be honest, I don't believe that people really lived to 900 years old. With all the modern science we've come up with over the years, you would think that we would have found the skeletons of Noah, and Cain, and Abel and all of them and would be able to figure out how old they were when they died. But no skeletons? I wonder why. I'm not saying they were fictitious, but there is no evidence that they actually existed.

Let's talk a bit about Genesis.

A talking snake? Really?! Come on people. It's a snake, and it talks? When was the last time we saw this? Harry Potter. That's right. Harry Potter. Someone once told me though, "hey, if I can believe that God created Man and the Universe out of nothing, then sure, I can believe that there is a talking snake."
Living in a Great Fish for 3 days? Yeah. Good job, Jonah.
Noah's ark? OK. Big Ark. Fitting 2 of every animal. God said that Noah will build an ark out of gopher wood, and use the measurement of a cubit. Now, I don't know if you know this, but a cubit is only about the size of your forearm; roughly 17 to 21 inches.
So the length is 300 cubits (Best Case Scenario: about 525 feet long)
Breadth of 50 cubits (BSC: about 87.5 feet wide)
And a height of 30 cubits (BSC: 52.5 feet high)
OK. So it's humongous. Almost 2 football fields long, about one football field wide, and about 5 stories high. Now, that is pretty big. But that had to house ALL the animals. Two of every animal for that matter. Wow.


I think the primary focus of this is going to be Christianity, considering we are a Christian nation. If I offend anyone, I don't really apologize. This is just me, and what I believe.

The story of Jesus is one I think everyone knows. Born of a Virgin, performed miracles, crucified, died, came back to life 3 days later.

This isn't new.
Let's go over to India.
Krishna; a thousand years before Christ.
Krishna was a carpenter, born of a virgin, and baptized in a river. Mind you, Krishna was just a deity worshiped in India, and there was no hard evidence that he existed as an actual human being.

Persian god, Mithra; 600 years before Christ.
Born December 25, performed miracles, resurrected on the third day, known as the Lamb, the Way, the Truth, the Light, the Savior, Messiah...

Study the religions of the Mediterranean region a thousand years before Christ. Many of the gods were born on December 25. It's not a new story.

Written in 1280 BC, the Egyptian Book of the Dead describes a god, Horus.
Horus is the son of the god, Osiris, and was born to a virgin mother. He was baptized in a river by Anup the Baptizer, who was later beheaded. Like Jesus, Horus was tempted while alone in the desert, healed the sick, the blind, cast out demons, and walked on water. He raised Asar from the dead. "Asar" translates to "Lazarus."
Oh yeah, he also had 12 disciples.
Yes, Horus was crucified first.
And after 3 days, two women announced Horus, the savior of humanity, had been resurrected.

And you may ask me, "what if you're wrong?" Then I'll simply respond with, "what if you're wrong?"

This is an ongoing blog. I'll update this later.

It's been awhile

New Stuff

Don't know what to really say here tonight. Been awhile since I've written up on here.

I miss writing on here.

Things have been alright I suppose. I'm broke, and hungry. I guess this is the life I should have been expecting. I mean, I am an actor after all.

1 month

Time seems to movie rather quickly.

It was one month ago, today, that I let my heart do the talking instead of my mind.

Best mistake of my life... So far.

I love you, Lindsay. You never cease to amaze me.

Feeling alive again

So maybe I'm just a little crazy right now because I am a bit sleep deprived, and have a very full stomach.

I need to find something out. I don't know what it is, and I'm not at all even paying attention to what my fingers are typing. This is all stream of conscience.

I'm just writing right now.

I'm in love.
I am in love with someone so incredible that I didn't think it was possible to be this happy. I don't even think anyone should be allowed to be this happy. It should be illegal.

I'll admit I've made some stupid mistakes in the past, and let my emotions get the better of me, and they got me in trouble with myself. But it's OK now. I understand who I am, and you have made me understand it.

You are an amazing woman who reminds me every day why I'm alive. I didn't think it was possible, but you proved me otherwise.

I'm done thinking about the past. It's really gotten me nowhere.

Always move forward. Going straight will get you nowhere. If you understand this, then you are on the right track.

Words, words, words. That's all I know right now.

Lindsay, I love you with all of my heart. If you don't understand that, then I'll find some way to show you.

Be with me forever, and we'll never have to be alone.

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone
In a crowded room?
Well I'm here with you
I said the world could burning
Now there's nothing but dark blue

I need to write more. You have inspired me.

You have made me feel so alive again.
I was slowly dying on the inside, and you saved me from myself.
I wish I could thank you, but I don't know how.

I am forever in your debt.

And we won't wake up on Sunday
So I'm building us a church
Where we can sleep in with the gods at work
And our friends will write us letters.
They'll never understand why we don't call.
We're hiding out until the Empire falls
Let it fall

I'm gonna keep writing here until I can get it all out.

You are that something I thought I'd never have.
I was a silly little boy in love, but didn't know what to do with my heart. So I left it in New York.
I had no other choice.
It wasn't until 2 and a half years later that I found it.
I snuck it into your pocket when you weren't paying attention.

Love me forever, and we'll never have to be alone ever again.

At Full Speed

Sometimes I really feel like I need an escape, ya know?
It's just one of those things that needs to happen every once in awhile.
Sometimes I really just hate being myself. I'm not sure why exactly. I just get uncomfortable in my own skin.
I itch,
but I can't scratch.
I starve,
but I can't eat.
I am parched,
but I can't drink.
Something feels not so right inside.

But what do I do about it?
Nothing.
I do nothing.
I lay back, and I just go with it.
Why?
I wish I even knew.

Sometimes I really hate being me, but I don't know why.

There's gas in the car, mine until sunrise. And there's no guarantee that leaving town's gonna set me free. But staying here.... it's just not what I need.....

Night Prison

Do you hear that?
It's the sound of silence
Closing in on you
Just don't let it catch you
Alive
Well this night prison
Is holding you down as you toss and turn
Just don't let it catch you
Alive

'Cause baby,

Time stands still for nobody
But you won't believe all the things I've seen
In these lucid dreams, I feel wide awake
And I know that I will never shake
This prison
No no no
Not this prison

Can you feel that?
It's the beating of your heart
Pounding in your chest
Just don't let it catch you
Falling asleep
Well in this empty room
The darkness falls, and deeper you go
Into the rabbit hole
And it'll get get you
While you're falling asleep

'Cause baby

Time stands still for nobody
But you won't believe all the things I've seen
In these lucid dreams, I feel wide awake
And I know that I will never shake
This prison

It's holding me down
This prison
It's making me drown
This prison
Is killing me now
Please save me from this prison!

Time stands still for nobody
But you won't believe all the things I've seen
In these lucid dreams, I feel wide awake
And I know that I will never shake
This prison
Time stands still for nobody
But you won't believe all the things I've seen
In these lucid dreams, I feel wide awake
And I know that I will never shake
This prison

I'm ready

And today was a day just like any other. I wake up to find it's another four Aspirin morning, and I dive in. I put on the same clothes that I wore yesterday. When did society decide that we have to change and wash a t-shirt after every, individual use? If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.

I take caffeine in the bloodstream, I need caffeine in the bloodstream. I take the stairs to the car, and there's fog on the windows. I grip the wheel and all at once I realize: my life has become a boring pop song, and everyone is singing along.

I finally had the gull to ask her to be mine. I can't believe she said yes. It's still one of those things that I'm getting used to.

3 years ago on New Year's Eve, I met this perfectly marvelous girl. I never would have imagined that she would be mine just 3 years later, on the same exact day. Incredible.

I'm on the verge, I'm on the verge: unraveling with every word. With every word you say, make me believe that I won't feel your tires on the street as I'm finding the words to say I'm ready. I'm ready to drop. Keep pushing. Don't stop me, I'm ready. I'm ready to fall. Don't stop, I'm already ready.

I won't get to see her much, but that means with every encounter we'll have, it's gonna be even more special. I know it'll be awhile before I do see her again, but that's alright. I'll miss her until then.